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The last few weeks have been a mental and physical obstacle course and a lot of things have been going through my mind. What if this or that.. and so many quotes that just seemed to pop in and out. Little tidbits of wisdom and humor.
Two have been a bit more prevalent in my mind than the others.
"Not every dark cloud has a silver lining, Sometimes whats behind them is much much worse." From the TORG RPG
And
“I’ve been thinking. When life gives you lemons? Don’t make lemonade. Make life take the lemons back! Get mad! I don’t want your damn lemons! What am I supposed to do with these? Demand to see life’s manager! Make life rue the day it thought is could give me lemons! Do you know who I am? I’m the man who’s going to burn your house down! With the lemons! I’m going to get my engineers to invent a combustible lemon that burns your house down!”
Cave Johnson from the portal game series.
Yeah did a lot of thinking, some crazier than others. And a lot of work moving forward working with the insurance company, Getting a new car, healing up. And dealing with two panic attacks over the last few weeks.
Taking a little time for some fun with a convention and just forgetting everything for a few days. A lot of laughs and good humor some of the best medicine around.
But ever looking forward and dreading what may be said next when I go in for the next checkup.
Which was yesterday.
Starting Monday im going to be rehabing my back and shoulder. But for the foreseeable future the idea of heavy lifting or power lifting is out of the question the heavy strain and motions being something that will bring the worst in a all ready compromised spine. Which im told will probably never be 100%. But I can workout, tone and sculpt but probably never have the mass I had before.
Which I will say was my safety blanket. I felt good, made me feel confident, more assure of myself knowing I was a bit more than. Its a hard thing to really describe but it felt good especially after a good workout.
What am I going to do?
Im going to rehab, to see where i can take myself and then go there.
How do I feel?
Uncertain, nervious, fustrated. Many people know how quickly ones life can change, Many in more extreme ways than I have been dealing with. If they can go forward. Then whats stopping me?
Nothing but myself. So its time for me to get out of my way and go forward.
I want to thank everyone for there prayers and kind words. The support is keeping me going the wind in my sails.
Two have been a bit more prevalent in my mind than the others.
"Not every dark cloud has a silver lining, Sometimes whats behind them is much much worse." From the TORG RPG
And
“I’ve been thinking. When life gives you lemons? Don’t make lemonade. Make life take the lemons back! Get mad! I don’t want your damn lemons! What am I supposed to do with these? Demand to see life’s manager! Make life rue the day it thought is could give me lemons! Do you know who I am? I’m the man who’s going to burn your house down! With the lemons! I’m going to get my engineers to invent a combustible lemon that burns your house down!”
Cave Johnson from the portal game series.
Yeah did a lot of thinking, some crazier than others. And a lot of work moving forward working with the insurance company, Getting a new car, healing up. And dealing with two panic attacks over the last few weeks.
Taking a little time for some fun with a convention and just forgetting everything for a few days. A lot of laughs and good humor some of the best medicine around.
But ever looking forward and dreading what may be said next when I go in for the next checkup.
Which was yesterday.
Starting Monday im going to be rehabing my back and shoulder. But for the foreseeable future the idea of heavy lifting or power lifting is out of the question the heavy strain and motions being something that will bring the worst in a all ready compromised spine. Which im told will probably never be 100%. But I can workout, tone and sculpt but probably never have the mass I had before.
Which I will say was my safety blanket. I felt good, made me feel confident, more assure of myself knowing I was a bit more than. Its a hard thing to really describe but it felt good especially after a good workout.
What am I going to do?
Im going to rehab, to see where i can take myself and then go there.
How do I feel?
Uncertain, nervious, fustrated. Many people know how quickly ones life can change, Many in more extreme ways than I have been dealing with. If they can go forward. Then whats stopping me?
Nothing but myself. So its time for me to get out of my way and go forward.
I want to thank everyone for there prayers and kind words. The support is keeping me going the wind in my sails.
Game Review Cyberpunk 2077
Its been a while since I did a game review and I waited on this cause i was hoping for updates to come out to flesh things out a bit. Cyberpunk 2077 was definitely one of the most hyped games of all time. Which has set a extremely high bar and low margin of error for CD Project Red. Based and taking extremely heavily from the pen and paper RPG Cyberpunk 2020 from R. Talsorian Games and written/created by Mike Pondsmith who I hold very highly as one of the top writers of Cyberpunk Science Fiction right up there with Neil Stephenson and William Gibson. CDPR took Id say 80-90% of what Mike Pondsmith wrote and just changed the date. doing there own story lines and taking the fictional setting of Night City California and creating a Indredibly well created living breathing city that you could drive through the same area and not see the same thing twice. But after that they missed the mark in so many ways. Blame the pandemic but so much of this was written before it happened that it
Another tour around the sun
Wow its been forever since I posted a journal well not much happened between then and now has there? (please dont throw things at me or fill my replies with what rock was I under this entire time :P ) To be honest its been a busy roller coaster that I wont bore people to death with. As those that follow me have noticed with things I mention in my posts Its been a lot of ups and downs and having good friends to lean on have kept me strong and on my feet through all of this. Taking another full trip around the sun. Yeah the day that was marked with me being spawned has come again LOL I promise I will be good today.... Till im caught :) I just wanted to thank everyone that has helped me in the last year for helping me stay strong and making me smile when I really couldn't. It's all of you that helped me get to this point and I coudlnt be luckier to have all of you :) :hug: thank you everyone and Here is to another 365 days of friends new and old :)
Final Fantasy 7 Remake
Continuing on with my little game reviews. As my first one wasnt exactly the best game ever .. nor ever will be. Final Fantasy 7 Remake is amazingly quite the opposite. I will admit I'm a Final Fantasy fan girl so I may be a little biased on this. First a little history for me and the Final Fantasy franchise my first taste was Final Fantasy 3 (6 in Japan) played on a dusty SNES that my brothers stopped playing as they had the latest and greatest system to date at the time. Ive often said that Final Fantasy in general is a masters class in story telling from 8 bit origins simple blocky sprites able to convey such powerful emotions and masterful storytelling. When 7 was released they left behind the Nintendo systems cause of the limitations of the system to the Playstation if they had the ability that today's systems have back then Im certain it would have looked a lot like todays remake does. For those that threw a fit that it wasnt exactly like the original.. you want to play the
Another trip around the sun
And can I skip a couple stops? :) Another Year has passed and yep its my Birthday. I will say the last 365 days have been nothing short of a roller coaster with a very long downward drop. But there is so much to go and going on despite it all. I want to thank everyone for wishing me a Happy Birthday and thank you everyone that has supported me in the good times and bad. Ive said this many times before its the community of friends and everyone else here that makes me feel big :) Really dont think I could ask for anything for myself with so much going on in the world I have a cousin in New York a RN that has come down with Convid-19 while helping others and being away from her Husband and children. And now with the recent tragedy here just miles from where I live in Minnesota. I think the only thing I can wish for is that a vaccine to be developed or better yet a cure for Convid-19 and that calmer heads and warmer hearts come together. Also that those that wish to make things worse
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I know I'm just some random guy on the internet, but once your current medical team has you back to performing regular, everyday tasks without pain or physical inhibition, you might want to consider getting some second opinions from doctors who specialize in returning athletes to their initial level of activities. Sadly, most doctors are relatively sedentary in their lifestyles, so they don't really understand weightlifting and take an overly risk averse approach to their patients who lift. Fortunately, there are some medical professionals (Check out this guy, for example: breakingmuscle.com/mobility-re…) who specialize in getting athletes back to full performance following severe injuries. While it is possible that you may have limitations that are insurmountable, I wouldn't take the first doctor's word for it without getting some other opinions. If I were a betting man, even without knowing all the particulars of your injuries, I would wager that you'll be lifting heavy again in the future.
Best of luck and fast healing!
Cincy
Best of luck and fast healing!
Cincy